Monday, April 16, 2012
I'm a little afraid to open it.
What if it hates me for ignoring it so long?
What if it remembers the abuse I put it through in November?
What if it knows that I've been cheating on it with another notebook? (one that's prettier and younger than this one is).
What if it actually DOESN'T contain all the secrets to finishing my novel?
What if I'm totally lost and IT NEVER GETS BETTER?!?!
Does anyone else go through this?
I've also started trying to actually READ what I wrote in November...I'm undecided on how it's going. There's a lot of anxiety in reading my own work, I find. I know I'm a good writer, but for some reason I can't quite SEE it right now.
I'm also becoming increasingly more worried that I'm going to have to completely re-scene the first few chapters, because while I feel it sets up the world and characters rather well, I feel like the action doesn't begin quite early enough.
I'm considering just skipping ahead to some more exciting parts and starting my edits there, and working my way back after they're done.
What do you guys do? I can use all the help/advice I can get.